11/21/09 ~ HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY SEAN!

How we deal with the Holidays. I'm supposed to be happy and peaceful and content. I have my moments but aside from my usual disgust at the pain people go through because they can't afford or find the perfect gift, I am fighting every day to not let the actions of a very sick individual wreck my Holiday.

My son's father has started his cruel act again of trying to look like he's being civil for the Holiday's. His way of doing this is to promise that he will do everything he can to encourage my s… Continue

It was a very slow process. First he/she met someone who never had any self-esteem to begin with, then took the remnants of his/her first failed marriage and used it all to gain his/her love and trust. Little by little, he/she took everything that he/she promised, everything that he/she said and knocked every bit of security and trust down piece by piece until he/she was a shell of what he/she used to be.

If you can imagine getting support for every aspiration that you have then little by littl… Continue

This is what a lot of us are reduced to. I drove 3 hours to watch my son's team play (probably would have anyway, but...). I get one and a half minutes of video and a few pictures. Yes, I saw my child! That in itself is a lot more than some.

For that I am thankful. I am more than appreciative that my son's father cannot control public events but my son still doesn't acknowledge me nor look at me. No, I don't know what he's really thinking. Yes, I realize that he is caught in a trap. He is not a… Continue

The following is the comment I posted on the ABC website in response to Alec Baldwin's interview on 20/20 last night. There were already 266 posts when I went to the page. Don't be shy...I'm learning not to be. The only time I have ever spoken up or put myself out there is when it is a problem with one of my children. This is a biggie!!! It just took me awhile to realize that it was real.

http://abcnews.go.com/Entertainment/comments?type=story&id=5832850

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I went to DCFest on Friday, 8/15 and listened to a lot of speakers and talked to a lot of people. It definitely gave me some strength back. Some of these people managed to come from pretty far away. They are all fighters. Their were a lot of people who had been screwed by the courts, by the state, and by other family members. The children are being kept away from loving parents and grandparents and siblings and cousins, aunts, uncles, godparents, communities for unbelievable amounts of time. I c… Continue